An Open Letter for my Babe

Hello babe, I am soooooo glad you came back on me. I am so happy that you're being so malambing after that month of october. I know we had so much misunderstanding from that month then you become so sweet to me after that. Sorry babe pero di ko mapigilan ang mag-overthink. Naiinis ako but my brain loves to torment me. Everytime I'll saw you talking to her. Everytime I keenly observe you simple touch on her, how smoothly your hands landed on her shoulder, I hate it!! I was dying to pull you far from her. It builds insecurities on me—on her. Close kami ng naging fling mo, sobrang close namin I treated her as my little sister. We were sisters and partners in everything, we are good together, clicked in everything but one thing she did that ruined everything—that was the moment you kissed her. It break my trust to the both of you. 

    I know that the both of you already said sorry on me. That you regretted it babe, but how can I assure it that you wouldn't do it again? Gusto kita palayuin sakanya but I realized do I have the rights to do so? May karapatan ba ako magcommand sayo? Wala nga ring alam yung mga tao tungkol sa akin?  Does it make sense na wala na rin akong tiwala sakanya? It made me paranoid, alam mo yun. Yung tipong baka hindi lang siya yung babae mo. I trusted you e. I trusted her. Yung tipong kahit ilang beses mo ako bitawan, once you comeback on me I will always welcome you. But now, It is really tormenting... Kampante ako lagi kapag tayong tatlo nagsasama-sama. I'm so comfortable that nothing will happen behind me but why? I will always keep on asking for it, I always wants assurance from you. I always want your attention to be only with me. I want you babe but why it's so painful to have you. How long can I take this pain? Bakit ako nahihirapan?  Bakit nakakasakit ka mahalin?

Hahahahahaha, Ironically everytime I will tell you to let me go you wouldn't like it. But when you said that word, I will do so. Why? I love you, I will always love you. But one mistake torments me everyday. In just one mistake you destroy my trust on you Babe. You kissed her, your hands already roamed on her body. Though it is just a seconds or minutes I don't care but it pains me. Ang sakit talaga eh. Gusto ko makalimutan pero ang hirap. Lalo na sa twing nakikita ko kayo na nagkakasama, nakakaasar na gusto ko hilahin yung buhok nung babae. Gusto ko manakit but thats not me anymore. I will not hurt anyone, Im just gonna smile and turn away. 

    awiiiit. Ang sakit kasi talaga. It is not good for me, anymore. Sorry babe, I love you but it pains me.