RenewedWriter

A week before my birthday they made me excited to celebrate that day. Honestly, since my 18th birthday ended I'm not usually like to celebrate my bday but this two special people in me they made me excited for that day. They made me feel that day is a very special day that day will be special, a something special will happen. That I can be that hapiest girl that can celebrate my birthday. What an Ideal right. They keep on asking me what gift would I like to receive, what kind of this stuff and so on. You know that feeling na hindi ka na-eexcite pero dahil naeexcite sila nararamdaman mo na din yung excitement, that's exactly what I felt. They are planning on what gift to give in front of me. He wants to give me this and that and so on.  After that week, here was the week were my bday is coming a few days a head. Nothing much happened. I still feel that kind of excitement but there is still tiny feelings deep inside of me that frightens me. It frightens me dahil yung pakiramdam n...

My surrounding is so calm, quie. I can only hear the cry of my nephew and his father talking to him. It's sounds so calming and relaxing but not for me. I want to hear a story from those people I have a deep relationship. I hate this kind of serenity. Right now, my mind is so tricky that it is deceiving me. I can feel the peace but why I can feel the anxiety? I hate this when I am not able to do a certain stuff. I hate when boredom strike and I don't know a way out. I can't figure out how to end this day without being sad and feeling alone. I believe that it will still come to past, butwhy it took so long? Can it happen today? I want to change or shiftthis kind of mood. I hate this kind of moment. I want to go out, but where should I go? What should I do on that place? I want to walk and just walk but where could be my destination? I'm very frustrated and I hate it.        So, Help me God!

It's been a long years since we both talked about our lives. Just sharing our thoughts. Sharing with our laughters. Just us . . . . Simple seems innocent. It tooks me a while to recover from the pain of my past. It took me a long while to prove myself that I already moved on from that scars. I am scarred. I am wounded, a deep wound is not easy to be healed. Just like mine it need to took a while. I'm really amazed from the Lord how He mold me. How He brought me back on that same process just to me become molded. I always loved the Lord how He patiently waited for me to become strong enough. Tonight, here I am... Just like how eagles became strong on soaring high. How the Lord renew their might. . It is the same with me. God will use my life. God will strengthen my belief system. On His spirit I entrust my path, my future. On Him might will be the foundation of my works. On His love be my driving force to move. Keep on pressing towards the goal. Keep on going. Keep on growing. ....

This is my first time using this app. So currently I am still finding out on how to use this. I'm hoping that it can help me on my writing journey. . . It is just a fresh start so let's get it on.